Stupid AVM. I hate you.
I hate you for forming inside of my daughter's perfect little body.
I hate you for not remaining dormant.
I hate you for rupturing.
I hate you for making her struggle.
I hate you for robbing her of so many experiences.
I hate you for putting her back in diapers.
I hate you for making her so angry.
I hate you for turning her into such a beast.
I hate you for turning me into a beast.
I hate you for trapping her inside her own body.
I hate you for forcing her to have such disgusting behavior issues.
I hate you for making her unable (or unwilling) to show any type of affection.
I hate you for making her a mystery to me.
I hate you for stealing her smile.
I hate you for never letting me know if she is happy.
I hate you for making us guess about everything because she is too stubborn to use any type of communication tool.
I hate you for making it so hard to take care of her.
I hate you for straining my relationship with my daughter.
I hate you for taking away her speech.
I hate you for making us feed her through a tube.
I hate you for making people feel sorry for us.
I hate you for not allowing her the sleep she needs in order for her brain to heal from the damage that YOU caused.
I hate you for stunting the growth of our family.
I hate you for making us so dependant on other people.
I hate you for exposing Spencer to so much ugliness.
I hate you for making everything so difficult.
I hate you for giving me such a strong testimony of Jesus Christ and the plan of salvation. Because what I really want to do is walk out the door and never come back. But I can't, because I know better.
Stupid AVM.
I hate you.
